Third time really is a charm! Even though the tec kept calling Peanut a little stinker, he must have showed off his heart well enough that the radiologist said it looks perfect! I also found out today that he is right where he should be for growth, and chances are really good that I will carry to term. The doctor doesn't even want to see me for another MONTH. :) How great is that.
He's still quite breach (with his feet constantly on my bladder) but has time to turn, so hopefully he will. I'm going for another ultrasound on Feb 13 to monitor his growth, since it is hard to tell by the size of my baby lump due to the three massive fibroids resting in my uterus.
Something else that is great is that Grandma and Grandpa are back in Canada (my parents) and they brought Peanut's crib with them! Tonight my mom and I are going to go and look at paint colours and hopefully painting will begin soon on the nursery.
PS. I've reached the waddling stage of pregnancy. feel free to point and laugh.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Little Stinker
Yesterday I had the most enjoyable ultrasound to date. I had a student doing the exam with an experienced, grandmotherly, witty woman overseeing him. Because it was a student doing the exam, I didn't have to lay there and look at the ceiling for the bulk of the appointment, and was able to look at the screen while they were doing the exam. The woman referred to Peanut multiple times as a "little stinker" because every time she would almost be able to get a good picture of his heart, he would move in a way so that she couldn't see it at all. And every ultrasound we have had since he was 13 weeks he has been facing my back, which also makes it more difficult to see his heart. At one point the tec told me I should put him in gymnastics right after birth because of all of the moving that he was doing.
I'm fully expecting a call from my doctor's office today saying that they have booked me in for another ultrasound in two weeks time in another attempt to see his heart. My theory is he is waiting for grandma (my mom) to come home so that she can go to the ultrasound and see him as well.
Oh Peanut. we already have a little stinker on our hands, and I love you so much more for it.
I'm fully expecting a call from my doctor's office today saying that they have booked me in for another ultrasound in two weeks time in another attempt to see his heart. My theory is he is waiting for grandma (my mom) to come home so that she can go to the ultrasound and see him as well.
Oh Peanut. we already have a little stinker on our hands, and I love you so much more for it.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
don't want to complain
I know that things are really very good. I feel Peanut kick daily, I have a boyfriend that loves me tremendously, and in about 3.5 months I'm going to have a little boy to cherish, love, hold and share.
I just get frustrated sometimes. Frustrated with things going wrong. Today I found out that my fibroids (which I was told a few weeks ago wouldn't be a problem) are likely growing again, as my uterus is measuring like I'm 33 weeks pregnant even though I'm only almost 23 weeks pregnant. Two weeks ago when they measured I was measuring like I was 25 weeks pregnant at almost 21 weeks, but that wasn't as big of a gap and they weren't as worried.
Now, the doc is worried again. And the high risk specialist that they thought they wouldn't have to send me with, I've been referred to.
I'm so thankful that I have this opportunity. that I live in a country where there are accessible, high risk specialists that will help make sure Peanut makes it safely into this world, but with this knowledge we are back to the fact that he might be very premature, among other things.
it's just difficult not to worry.
Something that made me smile today though? Peanut does NOT like the doppler. When the doctor put it on my right side, I felt peanut scoot as far to the left as he possibly could. When she put it up high, he wiggled down low. Such personality already. :)
I love you Peanut. Keep growing. Stay strong. I can't wait to meet you.
I just get frustrated sometimes. Frustrated with things going wrong. Today I found out that my fibroids (which I was told a few weeks ago wouldn't be a problem) are likely growing again, as my uterus is measuring like I'm 33 weeks pregnant even though I'm only almost 23 weeks pregnant. Two weeks ago when they measured I was measuring like I was 25 weeks pregnant at almost 21 weeks, but that wasn't as big of a gap and they weren't as worried.
Now, the doc is worried again. And the high risk specialist that they thought they wouldn't have to send me with, I've been referred to.
I'm so thankful that I have this opportunity. that I live in a country where there are accessible, high risk specialists that will help make sure Peanut makes it safely into this world, but with this knowledge we are back to the fact that he might be very premature, among other things.
it's just difficult not to worry.
Something that made me smile today though? Peanut does NOT like the doppler. When the doctor put it on my right side, I felt peanut scoot as far to the left as he possibly could. When she put it up high, he wiggled down low. Such personality already. :)
I love you Peanut. Keep growing. Stay strong. I can't wait to meet you.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Strong, Kicking Peanut
I've been starting to feel Peanut kick every now and then from the outside. The first time was on Christmas day, but for the most part it has been sporadic and not strong enough to feel.
Today when Dan was out getting some water and milk, I felt Peanut kick from the outside a few times, and was sad that it happened when he wasn't home. a little while later, when we were sitting and talking about some future possibilities, Peanut started to move again. I think this time it was Hiccups, because it was right by where his head is, and they were frequent and close together. Dan quickly came over and was able to feel one of the hiccups on his thumb.
My eyes started to well up and I was really excited that, at last, Dan had felt the miracle of a baby that is growing inside of me. I know he will feel it lots in the coming weeks. I'm currently 22 weeks and 3 days!
Today when Dan was out getting some water and milk, I felt Peanut kick from the outside a few times, and was sad that it happened when he wasn't home. a little while later, when we were sitting and talking about some future possibilities, Peanut started to move again. I think this time it was Hiccups, because it was right by where his head is, and they were frequent and close together. Dan quickly came over and was able to feel one of the hiccups on his thumb.
My eyes started to well up and I was really excited that, at last, Dan had felt the miracle of a baby that is growing inside of me. I know he will feel it lots in the coming weeks. I'm currently 22 weeks and 3 days!
Friday, January 13, 2012
Most Ultrasounded Baby ever
This Morning we went for the follow-up ultrasound to check on Peanut's umbilical cord, heart and kidneys. I really love the ultrasounds, and have gotten in the habit of asking friends to go with me, because they are pretty cool to see, and it seems my friends already love Peanut a lot, so why not get to see him? this morning Nicky got up extra early for work and came to see Peanut with us.
As I was laying during the first part of the ultrasound, where the tec did his business and all I get to do is lay there, I realized a few things. I realized I'm still afraid, at each appointment, that the tec is going to give bad news like that very first ultrasound I had with Zyggy. I don't think I will feel completely safe until I am holding Peanut in my arms. I also realized that even though the numerous ultrasounds can seem like a pain in the butt at the time, I'm really grateful for every chance to see Peanut that I can get. It's really starting to dawn on me that there is a Peanut in there, and that soon he will be out with us, and I will be a full blown mother, responsible for the care of another at all times. It's quite daunting.
Once we got to see Peanut, I became quite confused about his positioning. I've mostly been feeling him on my lower right side, close to my belly button, but today his head was on the right, above my belly button, with his spine curving around my left side and his feet down at the very bottom center (basically resting on my bladder). This is why I feel him so often on my bladder I guess! It was cool to know his exact positioning. This afternoon when I was sitting I felt his arms (which I know now are arms) on my left side, and I could feel it from the outside! Of course daddy was at work and could not feel too. hopefully soon.
Peanut is VERY breech right now. I know he has lots of time to turn, but I hope he does before he gets too big!
As I was laying during the first part of the ultrasound, where the tec did his business and all I get to do is lay there, I realized a few things. I realized I'm still afraid, at each appointment, that the tec is going to give bad news like that very first ultrasound I had with Zyggy. I don't think I will feel completely safe until I am holding Peanut in my arms. I also realized that even though the numerous ultrasounds can seem like a pain in the butt at the time, I'm really grateful for every chance to see Peanut that I can get. It's really starting to dawn on me that there is a Peanut in there, and that soon he will be out with us, and I will be a full blown mother, responsible for the care of another at all times. It's quite daunting.
Once we got to see Peanut, I became quite confused about his positioning. I've mostly been feeling him on my lower right side, close to my belly button, but today his head was on the right, above my belly button, with his spine curving around my left side and his feet down at the very bottom center (basically resting on my bladder). This is why I feel him so often on my bladder I guess! It was cool to know his exact positioning. This afternoon when I was sitting I felt his arms (which I know now are arms) on my left side, and I could feel it from the outside! Of course daddy was at work and could not feel too. hopefully soon.
Peanut is VERY breech right now. I know he has lots of time to turn, but I hope he does before he gets too big!
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
possible complications
I realized I haven't written about the other outcome of our last ultrasound yet. Maybe because I spent the first day freaked out about it, some time in denial, and am now feeling like everything might just have to be ok.
When I went back to the doctor he said that it looks like Peanut has a two vessel umbilical cord, which could cause heart or kidney problems. and he has me back for another ultrasound on Friday to get a better look at his heart and kidneys to prepare us for the future. Silly me went home and googled two vessel cord, and after about five minutes of reading some scary stuff decided to stop. It was, however, enough to get me worked up for a little while.
This pregnancy hasn't been easy. I'm definitely not one of those people who loves being pregnant and wants to do it all the time. I know that the end result will be worth it, but I would like to catch a break.
The good news from that ultrasound was, though, that the bleed in my placenta was healed and the fibroids haven't grown and might not even cause me to have a c-section, which would be great. It would also be great if I got to carry little Peanut as close to term as possible. Though a stay in the NICU wouldn't be the worst thing in the world, I would still love to avoid it if I could.
Hopefully Friday proves that there is nothing wrong with little Peanut and I can stop worrying.
When I went back to the doctor he said that it looks like Peanut has a two vessel umbilical cord, which could cause heart or kidney problems. and he has me back for another ultrasound on Friday to get a better look at his heart and kidneys to prepare us for the future. Silly me went home and googled two vessel cord, and after about five minutes of reading some scary stuff decided to stop. It was, however, enough to get me worked up for a little while.
This pregnancy hasn't been easy. I'm definitely not one of those people who loves being pregnant and wants to do it all the time. I know that the end result will be worth it, but I would like to catch a break.
The good news from that ultrasound was, though, that the bleed in my placenta was healed and the fibroids haven't grown and might not even cause me to have a c-section, which would be great. It would also be great if I got to carry little Peanut as close to term as possible. Though a stay in the NICU wouldn't be the worst thing in the world, I would still love to avoid it if I could.
Hopefully Friday proves that there is nothing wrong with little Peanut and I can stop worrying.
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